the darkest hour in the brightest moment

the darkest hour in the brightest moment
Originally uploaded by impulsiveUYJ

I am excelling in the industry I've worked for a decade and this new company really stretches my potential to the fullest. Now the day job is getting me to places my side job photography is also making progression. I should say that I am now entering my golden hours of life my mother conceived 30 years ago. I am making the dream dollars but I have to say I feel very happy. However amidst the often perceived hyperactive joyful being I am superficially lies a saddened image not many have seen. I thought, as a photographer, I should not only capture the emotions of others but focus and document myself as I struggle through the emotions and pains which help me to grow stronger. Autumn is a sad month for poets. The leaves are changing color and soon to fall and the death like winter once again blanket the city but call itself the winter wonderland. Living in the darkest hour but the moment is bright, I will be alright, but for now, I'm gathering the momentum that boils inside of me and use it to create.

Relinquish

Relinquish
Originally uploaded by impulsiveUYJ

brand new pillow cases and bed sheet. Although everything else stay the same, these changes mean so much to me. I am in great pain!!!
But I learned to face the pain. this season is so painful to me. October, thinking about last October I had so much hope. 2 month later, another surprise.
I'm too strong to not relinquish the mind and cleanse my soul. Amidst the shadowy past that stalk my sleep away, I find a warm smile in the mirror I face, I am strong!