mood

hours ago i was just very teary, sat by my pc and starring at photos which i really shouldn't be tempted to look at but i did, i was crying not like a baby, but an old man who came across great sentiments.

minutes ago in the shower, i was washing myself with great exuberance   knowing the fact that i finally have settled some old scores and ready to get more surplus, i am moody as usual but recently i have exerted through experience of a totally different set of moods.  sometimes i feel so positive that i could be negative and thought that's why i'm so attractive.  other days i feel so out of the place, all my extremities are trying to outshine each other in the most active ways.

i sat at the edge of my living room window to take photo of this beautiful flower in my backyard.  i was feeling very sick that day, bodily and mentally.  i used my 70-300mm nikkor VR lens mounted on D300 shooting at iso800 to take advantage of it's low noise attribute yet even though it's so bright outside but i wanted to take at very fast speed to secure the sharpness i seek and the detail which i didn't want to lose.  (i realize the faulty compound sentences I maybe writing).

Ever changing 2010

2010, the year of many changes.  This year will remain in my heart as a crucial turning point in my life.
Everything started with my visit to China in late Dec 2009 and celebrated the New Year 2010 in Nanjing China.  My view of China changed dramatically during my visit this time.  I went from a big critic of China's development to a supporter and definitely look forward China's future casting her giant shadow over the developed countries once viewed as places paved with gold bricks. 

Immediately followed my trip to China my long loved partner decided to take new steps toward the split of our relationship.  The court settlements have long filed away, we are still talking, but there will be more changes coming with her life that a possible abandonment of NYC is in shaping mode and soon she might find herself living next to the Golden Gate Bridge.

My beloved and long time chariot the slammed 1998 Toyota Camry was finally let go and not only did I changed model but I switched manufacture entirely.  I'm a proud owner of a Mazda 3 now and happily pointing the car to every corner to and yell Zoom Zoom.

Finally, after 5 long years of proud service in Fedex I have finally decided to cease the long battle with Corporate America and welcomed myself back into a smaller sized but more flexible company.  I lost tons of corporate perks and vacation time but hopefully if all well gained a new change to grow.  Funny how I'm viewed now as a corporate talker and my emails are safer than ever.  The good thing about corporate America is the manners and etiquette we chose to follow in protection of the brand name. 

Already in 6 months, many changes to reshape my life have taken place.  I know there will be more and I'm looking forward to them as the days go back.