Wouldn't you rather see the first posting to my brand new blog to be something like a curtain being drawn and the not so familiar face being lit on center stage with a spotlight and hint an indefinite future.
I've been on the road of blog a few years back. But the nature I am, an Aries tend to start something extraordinary in my mind but cease to continue short times later, finally prevailed with the success of my flickr page http://flickr.com/photos/fedexman1 now 2,807 pictures.
Facebook opened up my whole spectrum of energies in search of attention that my tourette syndrome influenced mind can finally speak my heart to my peers and beyond. My footprints on the net is widening. I have another project due sometimes in December on Shutterfly.com. My many never sold photos on imagekind. I find Tweeter too short and sweet to speak my complexity. And this morning facebook limited my wordage so I had no choice but to keep short and concise. I've been wanting to start a photo website to hopefully give stardom to a possible photographic career but I didn't know where to start. At the same time I wanted to restart a blog. Nevertheless, the lust for attention restarted my blogging engine. So here I am, talking about passion at the job.
I am in the industry of freight forwarding and custom brokerage. I started this career nearly 9 years ago after a lay off from a customer service / network administration job I've had. Through word of mouth I landed an air import job in a Taiwanese owned company near JFK airport in NYC. I started at merely 18K with very poor benefit. Couple years later, having compiled knowledge in air ocean import export and some warehouse and custom brokerage, I graduated the company and went on supervising at another Chinese owned firm. A few years later I found myself doing ocean import at Fedex.
I am not doing a resume but I'm intended to update my resume because nearly 4 years have passed in Fedex but I'm wondering if my intention of leaving a "mama papa smaller firm" to a big time corporation was the right idea. I must admit, the corporate environment made me see differently and I feel every minute of drowning in the negativity right now is making me mature by the hour. Of course I could choose not to focus on the worst but again my personality chooses these darker sides and sort of motivates me to push ahead.
My mentor at the job who was the district manager is now downgraded to sales. He was sort of "fucked over" by the system for what he viewed as a lifestyle rather then a career. He would often say, "make your work fun". Similarity, devote your passion to what may take up most of your life time and to work by not simply doing it but to live it.
I didn't choose this career but I landed in it simply for the means of survival. My attitude in life is to put passion in what ever I am into. If the passion begins to mystify and the good taste become stale I would like to fix it but by no means nothing works to rekindle the flames I would abandon like many of us to walk away and start something new.
My supervisor wrote to me after reading an emotional and diplomatic email to my colleagues in the west coast. She reminded me to KISS (keep it simple and stupid) that I should not be so rigid and ask me not to put my photographic artistic passion onto my job and said a job is just a job. An Aries tend to overly rigid on itself and often reminded to take things easier. But to loose the passion in my job is like the best food without any taste and to erase the emotion from my work space is like life itself without motion.
In my blog you should see my life of constant struggles and the battles of the norm and what's inside my heart. I will also share my photos which are often bright and positive yet I would also put out many darker images of myself drowning in an unrealistic reality.
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